Friday 29 August 2014

Feeling SAD......

Ok so I'm normally up beat and try to see the positive side but I have to WARN you this post is not an one of those.

Have to start with I FUCKING HATE THIS FUCKING DISEASE! Today I went to Cornwall to view a cat unfortunately the cat just wasn't right for us, so we went into Truro for a bit of shopping, my favourite shop is The White Stuff I just about fit into a size fucking 18!! WTF I am now officially obese!!! gone from size 0 to a size 18 in 3 years this has sent me spiralling into a pit of self loathing and despair. I didn't eat anything yesterday and all I've had today was my usual supplements. I feel like I want to starve myself so have decided not to eat for as long as I can take it I WONT LET THIS SHIT WIN! Im feeling ever so depressed, don't want to see anyone, just want to hide away from the world and shut my eyes. I thought I'd already reached the bottom of the bottomless pit but this new depression has reached an all time low. I think its a combination of things mainly THIS FUCKING DISEASE what its done to my body, finding my pet cat dead earlier on this year and not being able to find a suitable cat and so the list goes on...... of course the weather is changing so its never a good time of year. God I needed to get that out, thank you blog for listening I think I'd go out of my mind if I didn't have this platform to sound off on.

Friday 22 August 2014

Radical Remission

The new buzz word at the moment in relation to the Big C is 'Radical Remission' a new book written by Dr Kelly Turner.  Dr Turner has studied radical remissions and come up with a list of 9 factors that she has found in people who self heal. Here's the list in a basic format.

• Radically changing your diet
• Taking control of your health
• Following your intuition
• Using herbs and supplements
• Releasing suppressed emotions
• Increasing positive emotions
• Embracing social support
• Deepening your spiritual connection
• Having strong reasons for living

As Dr Turner explains "It is important to note that these are not listed in any kind of ranking order. There is no clear “winner” among these factors. Rather, all nine were mentioned just as frequently in my interviews.” I want to address these points one by one.

Here's what the Belief Doctor say's about the 9 points http://beliefdoctor.com/news/radical-remissions-from-cancer-9-key-factors

and the natural alternative to Tamoxifen with details on DIM and others http://elynjacobs.com/2012/01/15/natural-alternatives-to-tamoxifen/

Ok so I'm gonna go and do some work now just wanted to share this latest set of info with you just in case any of you are thinking of going down the same route of me and saying no to the hormonals. Its a risky strategy but one I personally feel is worth taking you have to weigh up all the pros and cons for yourself its an individual decision and not one to made lightly.


Arimidex or NOT...... that is the question

So as many of you will know I have been kind of given the all clear see few posts below. All the scans are clear and there is currently no cancer anywhere whoopie! However, in place of the dammed Tamoxifen which I stopped taking on the 21st July I have been prescribed Arimidex because apparently I am now through the menopause. Last week I decided to have a look into the side effects of this particular hormonal drug and found to my horror even worse side effects than the Tami! My main ache on Tami was the weight gain and the migraines, on this new tablet the side effects are and I quote from real life stories cataracts and blindness!, more fucking weight gain, joint pain, migraines etc etc etc oh with the added high possibility that I will develop arthritis in my thumbs (already have problems with the thumbs) which would need operations!! WOW and they didn't tell me of any of these side effects when they prescribed it to me if they had of done I would of said a flat out NO THANKS. Feeling a bit livid with the docs and hospital for not telling me of this and have weighed it all up...... so if I take it I might prolong my life by a bit longer but I might go blind and have problems with my hands so wouldn't be able to paint and create its a no brainer really isn't it of course I'm not gonna take the shit, I'd rather not be here if I couldn't see the world to create my art. I have an appointment in October to see how I'm going on the Arimidex..... yeah right.....!!!!! not sure what I will tell them at the moment and quite honestly don't want to take anything else. Will continue on the Herceptin because in comparison the side effects are minimal and don't affect me that badly. I would be interested to hear from any of you reading about this drug Arimidex or by brand name Anastrozole and your experiences on this and if you find or recomend any of the other hormonal drugs to be better or with less horrible side effects. Please post a comment below and I will return the message. In place of prescribed drugs I sent off and received my first supply of 120 caps of DIM which I am going to take as a natural alternative to the hormonal's for further information see my report on it in the post titled "DIM definitely not stupid......"Many thanks for listening.